We are nowhere and it's now

Get me out of here.

When my friends talk about how it makes boys more attractive if they are good at a certain sport, and i see that. But holy, if you are smart and well spoken there is nothing more appealing. I should start hanging out at debate tournaments…

It’s strange. I think i finally get it. Not caring. I feel good. About who i am, where i am, everything. I am okay with being alone, for the first time. But i feel like i am on the edge. And i dont want to go back.

Family always makes me feel like shit.

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It’s beginning to look a lot like christmas (4/52) on Flickr.

Via Flickr:

week 4 photo! :)
Yesterday there was a giant snow storm, getting home was pretty crazy considering that I live outside of the city. But when I woke up this morning it was beautifully white and snowy outside and my parents were playing christmas music :D

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Im not even going to try and make this poetic or deep, or even make sense.

I feel…
Like Last year is happening again, only with people i like more.
That people like me less the longer they know me or the less I act like my self.
Bad for how much I didn’t like you. Your actually great, I’m glad we are friends.
Like I miss being part of a team.
Like christmas is going to suck this year.
That Fake it til you make it isnt cutting it anymore. I want to actually be happy.
I guess I just feel
…Alone.

Some days I’m so Excited to leave. I picture my future, and I can feel it. And I feel like whatever I choose will be amazing and wonderful. But then some days all I can feel is fear. That Ill make the wrong choice. That i won’t be good enough. That I’ll be alone. That what I always thought would be the best time of my life will just be a disappointment.
Lately it’s been more option number two.

This is what I wanted to say:

You deserve better. Legit. Not even him at his best. Stop settling.
Stop blaming the girls for the things that happen. They should know betteryes but so should slhe. And so should you. as they say, It takes two to tango. and the only thing that doesn’t change in all of these stories is him. It’s different girls, it’s different situations but that same result. You get hurt. Maybe mad and then you forgive him and it happens again. The only way to break the pattern is you. If you cant trust him to talk or hang out with certain people then that’s a sign. A sign not that he joule stop hanging out with them but you should end whatever it is.
Stop segregating yourself from everyone else for him. It’s not good for either of you. And your friends can only take so much. I know what you want for the future and maybe it’ll work out, but you can’t force it to happen. And trying isn’t going to make you happy.
You’re great. Start believing that. If you did you wouldn’t take any of his crap.

Sincerely,
Your friend.